A Poem I wrote when my dad was sick with cancer....

[FeLLy aka Felicia]

I heard some bad news, something that made me scared,
I could feel in the pit of my stomach.
I found out my dad has cancer; it was something I had always feared.
Just the word cancer, shook my heart.

I knew many people that passed away because of this evil cell,
And yet I know some have beat it, and of course turned out well.
The fact that my dad is sick, just completely blows my mind,
When this poison is inside of him, and the cure they cannot find.

How can such a poison choose the most wonderful person?
He is not made to dwell this sickness,
He is so very strong.

My mom is really upset, and I just dont know what to do,
My family cries themselves to sleep at night and sometimes, I find myself crying also.
How my tears always wet the pillows,
and my heart is so sad.

I know I have to be strong, and my prayers are always said,
But a question always come to mind: Does anyone really hear me scream for my dad, when I’m lying there in bed?
And when I dream of my father,
I awake to the dead silence around.
That seem to engulf me,
For this, I scream out for my father.

But what doesn’t kill us later makes us stronger, that’s why I always have hope,
But with each passing day that it’s on my mind, I find it really hard to cope.
Each day has me struggle through life,
And I feel my heart being pulled in so many directions.
My father was the one who understood me,
He knew very answers to my very troubles.

I promised myself then,
That no matter what, I would stay strong for my dad,
Through thick and thin.
And I know my dad struggles,
His feelings he does not show, but I know that he is sad.

I know our fate is in your hands God, but please have mercy on my fathers soul,
Hold his hand and watch over him, as he goes through his treatments.
Help him through this struggle,
For his heart is as gentle as a giant.
He is precious to me like a pearl thats been lost in the deep sea.
God, please listen for our familys prayer’s.

I love you dad!
Always,
Felicia